I had that dream again today. I’m not scared of the ocean, not really. I like boats and I like snorkeling and I LOVE being in/near the sea. But one of my recurring nightmares is about THE WAVE, the big one, the thirty-footer tsunami-like one. I’m looking up, either on the beach at the water’s edge or actually in the water, and the wave is towering over me, just cresting, ready to fall, ready to drag me under. Or it’s getting ready to do that to someone I love and I have to hold on tight (never tight enough; I always let them slip from my hands). Today while sleeping it was just me, bodysurfing the waves, knowing if I kept just beyond the crest of the waves I’d be all right, but I was getting closer and closer to the breaking point.
How symbolic is that? I know, disgustingly so. And what’s always irritating is that the dream comes not when I’m stressed out, not when I have major life-decisions to make, not when I’m in the midst of chaos. That would be satisfying. I could point to the dream and say, “look how stressed I am! See? See?” No, I always get the dream in relatively quiet periods of my life. Makes it difficult to say my subconscious is clever. No, I have a delayed-reaction synapse in my psyche, apparently.
Although I am thinking about surfing lessons. Hmmm.
I’m off to slap some pics on Bethany’s site. For those of you keeping track, she’s my little sister and she’s off on a Grand Adventure. She’s been living in her truck since August, traveling the country. When she runs out of money, she gets a job, makes a little bread, and then gets back on the road. She just had her last day of work at the inn two days ago, and she’s in Florida, headed south toward the Keys. She does wonder if the Keys at Spring Break is the wisest choice, but hell, maybe there’ll be free beer to make up for the bikini crimes. Might take a while to sort and download all her photos that I just got processed, but there should be a few up tonight…..
Meet-up Saturday! See below.
i know what you mean with the dreams. In times of relative calm, my dreams always seem to say “don’t relax quite yet, any moment the other shoe will drop”
Maybe you dream about the wave coming which will spoil your calm periods. Not knowing what the next storm/curve ball that comes your way is stressful, too.
Key West is my absolute favorite place on the planet!! Your sister will love it and I am completely jealous that I am not going to be there any time soon!!!!!! It’s amazing and the people are really nice – perfect for the single traveler (esp a girl!! I always go by myself!!)
I have that dream too.
I love water, I love the ocean, I like surfing and I’ve been a swimmer since I was itty bitty. But I still have that dream and it scares the shit out of me.
hoooboy! Scares ME to think that anybody else dreams it too…that DREAM is one of the reasons I *only* lived in Hawaii for a couple of years. yipes. Perhaps we need to knit seat cushions to be used a flotation devices…..
So… let’s look on the positive side. From your blog, I can tell that you are an incredibly energetic, dynamic person. Pehaps this huge wave is a reflection of yourself – tremendous, dynamic, powerful, able to unknowingly leave those close to you behind at times in your swirl of activities. This may be a signal to just slow down a bit and assess where you are with those close to you. (I’ve had a nightmare/dream since I was 4 years old, and I have finally learned to welcome it as a call to action in certain parts of my life. Works for me!)