I’ve had mild insomnia for the last couple of nights – not too
badly, but annoying. I’d call it hyper-wakefulness, rather than real insomnia. I finally fall into sleep and wake a few minutes later. I
change position, lie there for a long time, staring at the backs of my very
interesting eyelids, fall asleep, and wake again fifteen minutes later.
But tonight, now that I’m at work, of course I’m exHOSSted.
I could sleep like a log. Even the fact that we’re watching Narnia on DVD isn’t
helping. What a good movie this is.
I haven’t written much of anything since “winning” Nanowrimo
two days ago – I think I’ve earned a little rest. Not much of one, though, or I’ll
lose the momentum, and I want to push through this book and finally END something.
I never end my books. This time I would like to, and I would like to try my
hand at editing a book. I think I’ll like that.
Also, I’ve become supremely lazy in the last two days. I don’t
want to do ANYTHING. I would like to lie on the couch and then get someone to
carry me over to the bed. Unfortunately, I have quite a lot to do. (Quite a lot
of partying and carrying-on, also, and it’s nice that I’m only working ONE DAY
(night) this week and being paid as if I’m here all week – gotta love a job
which has shift-swaps, especially if people owe you.)
I apologize: None of my thoughts fit together. Like this
one, which I’ll share, even though it’s all non-sequiturish. I am thinking
about maybe not watching so much TV. Or getting rid of it altogether, if Lala doesn’t
mind. I haven’t asked her yet, but she’s said in the past that she doesn’t need
it. I like it much more than her. It’s my relaxation – my Tivo saves all my
little indulgences, and then I curl up and watch, and even if it’s only ten
minutes a day, I feel all pampered. But then other days, days off in which I
could be writing/exploring/adventuring, I spend all day catching up with TV
shows. I don’t need that.
I must, however, wait until Heroes and the Amazing Race are
at their end-of-season before I really think about that crazy move. I may be
considering going clean, but I’m not ready to go cold-turkey yet.